kicked habit
posted October 03, 2005 at 10:18 pm
I'll try to make this brief, because this is the third entry I've started over the past week just to say this:
I quit smoking last Monday (September 26). It was virtually painless, I'm sure due to the Wellbutrin.
But the reason it's been hard for me to write about the quitting is because it's only one tiny element that signals how fundamentally changed I am feeling these days. I want to write in more detail and explain exactly what I mean by that, yet I've not been able to find the right words to convey the significance of what is going on for me right now internally.
It's as though I am miles and miles away from who I was a few weeks ago, but it's not that I'm becoming someone different. Instead, it seems more like the real me who I've somehow managed to shove aside over the past eight months is back in full force. Of course, no one reading this has any idea of what I'm talking about because I haven't talked about it here before. Heh.
But let's just say that it's really making me mad that I finally have something that should be significant enough to write about on a personal website which is begging for content - and I can't get enough of a grip on it to make it worthwhile.
Grrrrrr. Frustrating. And I can't even light up a cigarette to help stimulate my creativity.
Comments
I think it's fantastic that you've quit. Seriously a wonderful thing. And for the otehr stuff, it's always great to find your way back to yourself so congrats on that too.
hi. i found your site by googling *movable type blogging tips* (i'm SLOWLY building my typepad blogsite) anyways, as a smoker who Very Much Relates to your post's last sentence, i was oddly moved to send a random shoutout to wish you much luck & a huge congrats for being able to doing something awesome for yourself. peace~
That is great! I keep meaning to quit and everytime I get sick, I come really close to it but for some reason or another, I always give in. My doctor likes to say Wellbutrin can somehow help you loose weight, but maybe it just helps with fighting the urge to chew on everything in sight once you've quit smoking. :)
I just marked my 2 year anniversary last week of quitting that nasty habit. Congratulations! It's the best thing you'll ever do for yourself! :)